I'm leaving Utah tomorrow to head back to Las Vegas. Hmmmm.
I've enjoyed being here. Really, it just felt like the past two years didn't really happen. I felt like I'd been gone for a month or two. It really threw me off to realize people had lived their lives away from me for TWO SOLID YEARS. What the?! Sarah had a different apartment than the one I knew about. Ryan had friends and jobs I didn't know about. Huh?!
I honestly felt like everything should be the same as when I left. The friendships I had in September of 2005 should have the same dynamics today as they did then, right? Apparently not.
I now realize I keep trying to push a friendship on people who don't want it, because I'll hate to lose them. (Coincidentally, my iTunes is set on random and I just realized "I'm Gonna Make You Love Me" by Diana Ross & The Supremes is playing, hahahaha!)
My parents want me to sincerely think about moving back home. I don't think I want to right now. It would be the smartest thing to do financially, but when have I ever made the smartest decision?
I enjoy the school I am attending, I enjoy my handful of Vegas friends, I enjoy living alone, I enjoy being near my sister & family, I enjoy THE WARMER WINTER! ;)
If I can get a job that pays well, then I can make it through the next year and a half until I graduate. Who knows what I'm going to do once I have my cosmetology license?! Utahns are cheap (nice generalization there) and Las Vegans are more willing to pay for the services (again, quite general), so I may want to stay in the area. I have no idea yet.
I make life-altering decisions flippantly.
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