Tonight I got to talk to my sister-in-law, and she helped me realize some things. (Which I really appreciate.)
I have gained a reputation for being the always happy, giggly one; and I've tried so hard to live up to that. But I have been having a really hard time. I am the loneliest and most depressed I've ever been. And not trying to hide it anymore is helpful.
I am struggling so much emotionally, financially, professionally, physically, and socially.
Aliesha says I need to cut myself some slack. I beat myself up so much because I realize my great potential and see where I'm lacking, which is so true.
I have a laundry list of what is wrong with me, and don't pat myself on the back for just getting out of bed some mornings.
I have a lot to think about and learn; and things may not get easier but I'll be able to handle them better.
2 comments:
I love our sisters-in-law.
I'm sorry. I have had struggles with depression in my past and it's a really difficult thing to deal with.
What helped me the most was making sure I read my scriptures everyday. I read at least 20 minutes a day and prayed a lot. I found that the days when I forgot to read were my hardest and as soon as I'd realize that I hadn't read, I would stop what I was doing, read my scriptures, and then things would become easier immediately.
It may not always work like that for everyone, but that's what worked for me and I don't think it would hurt anyone to try it.
I'll be praying for you. :)
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