"A waist is a terrible thing to mind"

I have gained six pounds in the past two months. Oh. My. Heavens.

Even though I am still down somewhere between 25 to 30 pounds from this time last year, this is a total setback. I'm disappointed in myself. Sure, it hasn't been a stress-free couple of months (Ha!) but I know I did things to sabotage myself. ("I say sabotáge") But I suppose it is also a positive thing because it reenstills in me the desire to get off my butt and get healthy.
My new goal is to lose 75 pounds by Christmas 2006. That is a lot of weight, but it is also a lot of time to get it done. I know how to do it and I believe that I can do it. The only thing left is to actually do it. It's not about getting skinny per se, it's just about being healthy. I'm not a small girl, I'd look competely anorexic if I were the worlds concept of skinny.

Holy crapola, seventy-five pounds is a lot. It would put me down to what I was at the beginning of junior high. Wow. My mother thinks I look best at where I was when Elizabeth was married. I peaked at 11-years-old? That's sad. Granted, I was about 5'8" at the time...I've never really looked my age.

I was trying to come up with a 'things I will do when I'm skinny' list, but I couldn't think of many things. I decided that I am me; regardless of what number is in my jeans I am who I am. I say what I say, I act how I act. I don't think being smaller would change a lot about me. I'll always be giggly, I'll always be random, I'll always be slightly on the nerdy side, I'll always be tall, I'll always have big feet...unfortunately, haha.

Things I will do when I'm skinny:
buy a 'little black dress'
buy a 'little red dress'
borrow clothes from Deborah
go on lots of rollercoasters that have the over-the-shoulder restraints

Things I still won't do even when I'm skinny:
run in public
rock climb
pretty much any sort of public sporting event