"Brad Pitt is not the poo on the cookie." -my mother

I'm so bored with myself.
I don't do anything. There is no point to my getting up in the morning.
I'm only working three days a week right now, so on my off days I'm spending what little money I have earned.
Although I'm not too keen on what my parents have in mind for me.

According to my parents...
I'm supposed to be working on three things right now:
* Getting an education
* Finding a spouse
* Doing service

I'm supposed to be improving two things right now:
* Getting to sleep earlier/not sleeping into the day
* Far less time on my computer


lessee here...
--How am I supposed to get an education when it costs me SIXTEEN THOUSAND DOLLARS to go where I want? Where am I supposed to get that kind of dough? I don't want to go to a college because nothing there interests me enough to major in it. Sure, I am interested in learning more about some specific topics, but they do not apply to one another at all.
--I am a 5'10" brunette chunky social phobic with a quirky sense of humor...I don't really have guys banging down the door. Sorry, Mom. I wouldn't even know what to do if they were, haha.
--What in the world kind of broad subject is that? I am doing a service to myself by not subjecting myself to public humiliation by leaving my house. I am doing a service for the entertainment of others by speaking at all when I'm really tired. I am doing a service for that chubby chick in the pink spandex capris by not openly laughing. My service quota is pretty much full.
--I tried! I was wide awake in my bed last night for over two & a half hours using everything in my power to make me fall asleep. I even went through 3 CDs of soft music on my iPod. This is not my fault.
--Ah, see here...you can't have the best of both worlds. I'm supposed to be social yet not be on my computer more than a few minutes a day. Doesn't everyone realize that is pretty near the only social contact I usually have? I abhore calling people; I will wait until they sign online. Why do you think I downloaded the widget that lets me send Text Messages to my friends phones from my computer? Online or in person; that's how I work best.



...so I bought myself a new shirt today. Hopefully that will help.